This evening Jacob read, as I listened, the story from Genesis about Joseph (the dude with the extravagant robe) and his older brothers who, because they were jealous, through him in a cistern, first, and then sold him off as a slave to a caravan of Ishmaelites passing through on their way to Egypt. It occurred to me, as Jacob was reading, just how much of a pickle this must’ve seemed like for Joseph as it was happening. How was he to know, in the midst of the abuse he suffered at the hands of his brothers, being sold off and sent to Egypt as a slave, that he would one day be in charge of Egypt? Surely, he suffered and wondered what the heck was going on! But, in time, he was blessed immensely and, realizing his blessings, he forgave his brothers who eventually came grovelling back to Egypt and unexpectedly found Joseph to be the one whose mercy they would need to survive.
So, why do I mention this? It’s because, in the midst of the most challenging year that I’ve had as a teacher amidst a shift in my personal values and priorities, I find myself asking a lot of questions about what I’m spending my days doing and if or how that should or could change in the not-so-distant future. In fact, I find myself getting pretty anxious about it at times. But, with the advice of my pastor, I’m learning to breathe a little deeper and take a more focused look at the Word that God has given me to help me sort this out. If I can get to know Him better, I’ll likely have a better idea regarding what He wants me to do.
Like Joseph, many of us walk through anxious or difficult seasons in our lives that we can’t really make heads or tails of. We don’t understand why things happen the way they do. But, as Joseph knew, faithfulness in the One who does know what the future holds, despite present circumstances, is worth holding onto. So, whatever you might be going through, Seek God in daily prayer and devotion to the Word he’s given us, hang tight, and, in God’s time, it’s all going to unfold in an amazing way that you could’ve never imagined, regardless of your present circumstances. Trust him.
“Here in this moment I can feel You at work. I took forever to notice, but, now that I notice…Your voice is the Word…only in the silence I can hear…You speak clear to me…it’s so clear to me…because when You speak, I am at rest…fears subside…clouds roll back. Like a child, oh my God I hold on to you.”-from “CLEAR” by Kevin Max from the soon-to-be-released album BROKEN TEMPLES