God is not found in a church. The great I AM is too big for a building, a bureaucratic hierarchy, or a denominational stance.
Audible words are not necessary. God knows your heart whether you know it or not. Stop trying to look at others to find God.
We will never be satisfied if we hope to find meaning in a building. We will never find peace like a river by watching the walk of another person.
Instead, find it in your soul right now by taking off your masks and asking God for it. Grab the grace. It is unearned. It is free. It is available. Live in peace.